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Beautiful Series Reading Order

Feeling lost and want to know where to start with the Beautiful Series? The good news is that you can start anywhere in this series. Each Beautiful book is a standalone.

What about the novellas? Well, that’s a different story. They’re companion novellas and kind of have to be read in between the main books (hence the name ‘The Beauty in Between’)

There are handy links at the end of each book that will tell you what comes next and/or link you to a related novella. But for those of you who want to start from the beginning, here’s a handy reading list.

 

Reading Order
**(includes The Beauty in Between)**

(Too Close)

A Beautiful Struggle

(Phoenix)

A Beautiful Forever

(Commitment)

A Beautiful Melody

A Beautiful Rock

(Devotion)

A Beautiful Star

A Beautiful Taste

A Beautiful Danger

There aren’t anymore novellas coming out at the time, however, feel free to suggest one in the comments.

 

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David’s Beautiful Struggle

Today is the official launch day of Too Close: The Beauty in Between, so it is now available to purchase on the iBookstore, Amazon, Barnes & Noble and Kobo

And to help celebrate the release of his story, David has kindly agreed to post on my blog about his side of the story in A Beautiful Struggle.

Welcome David!!

David: Um, yeah, thanks. Where did you get that photo? Have you been advertising my chest everywhere?

Lilliana: What? Oh, ignore that *laughs nervously* It’s just something I had laying about…

David: Okay…well, hi everyone out there. This is the first blog post I’ve ever done, so bear with me. I’m a little nervous.

Lilliana asked me to talk a bit about what life was like for me after Trina’s accident and while she was dating Elliot. It wasn’t the most favourite part of my life so far, but here goes…

After Trina was released from hospital, I spent as much time with her as possible. I was there to try and cheer her up, to help her catch up on uni work – anything she needed. I wanted to be around her, I wanted to show her that she was still the same person to me.

The attack changed her though, she spent a lot of time being angry, and she directed a lot of it toward her mother. Mrs Mahoney was just trying to be positive. Although, she went about it the wrong way, insisting that Katrina just needed to get out of the house and go and meet new people to put the whole ‘Christopher episode’ behind her.

This however, prompted Katrina to think about my behaviour since the accident.

“David?” she asked about a month after the attack, when we were lying about in her family’s rumpus room watching a movie.

I reached over and grabbed the remote, hitting the pause button before I turned my attention towards her. “What’s up?”

“You can go out you know.”

“Yeah baby girl, I know that,” I smiled, sitting up properly and facing her. “I just don’t want to right now.”

She sighed and adjusted herself on the couch so she was facing me as well. “Do you remember the conversation we had in the hospital? I said I wanted things to be normal.”

“I remember Trina. How am I not acting normal?”

“Well, you’re not flirting with the girls at uni anymore. You’re not going out and being your usual man-whorish self. I feel like I’m stopping you from living your life, and I don’t want that.”

“Trina, it’s fine. I don’t want to go out right now. I want to hang out with you.”

“David, please don’t take this the wrong way but, I want you to go out.”

“Maybe I don’t want to go out unless you’re going out too,” I said with a shrug of my shoulders, while I fingered the play button on the remote. I wanted this conversation over.

“I don’t need you to babysit me. I’m not going to go all depressed if I’m on my own for a few hours. Go out, have fun, pick up girls. I want normal David – you partying and being a ginormous flirt is normal. Please don’t change your life, or it will be like Christopher wins.”

“What about you? Staying home isn’t normal for you.”

“I know that. I’m going to start training again. I’ll focus on uni and training. I think that’s enough for now. I’m not ready for the whole party scene, but when I am, you’ll be the first to know ok?”

“Alright Trina, I’ll go out more. No problem,” I said, hitting play to focus on the movie.

“You’re upset,” she stated.

I hit pause again. “I’m fine. I said I’ll go out more and give you time to yourself. It’s fine ok – can we watch the movie please?”

“Ok… I’m not trying to be mean David. I’m just trying to get my life back.”

“I understand Trina. Really, I do,” I told her, hitting play again.

The truth was – I didn’t understand. I didn’t want to go out and hook up with girls anymore. The moment I realised how in love with Katrina I was, was the moment I stopped sleeping around. I would rather spend the rest of my life watching movies with her, than spend a night at a bar, picking up some drunk girl to screw. That just wasn’t me anymore.

When I went home that night I spoke to my mum about it, she was the only person in the world who knew how I felt about Katrina.

“You know, you can always just go out and not pick up. Plenty of people do that you know.”

“Yeah, I guess.”

“Or you could just come home. Spending the night with your mum wouldn’t be the end of the world would it?” she suggested.

“No Ma, that wouldn’t be a bad thing at all.”

So that’s what I did, occasionally I went out to the uni bar and hung out with a few of the guys. Of course they noticed that I wasn’t picking up, but I just shrugged it off and alluded to having an arrangement with someone like I did with Monica.

Of course, the girl I went home to was my mother. We had started reading a new series together, so I spent a lot of time transported to a realm filled with dragons, elves and other magical creatures.

I entered into a bit of a routine, going to visit Trina early in the evening and then heading off to the uni bar later. I avoided night clubs because they weren’t any fun if I wasn’t dancing, and I only wanted to dance with one girl.

She seemed to be a lot happier training, and was glad that I was going out again. We’d always had the rule that we didn’t ask questions about relationships, so while Katrina assumed that I was seeing other girls, I said nothing to confirm or deny anything.

Half way through our second year of uni, I started to think it would be a good idea to get an entry level job in a law firm to help secure a junior solicitors role when my degree was done. I told Trina of my plan and she decided it would be a good thing for her too.

I was lucky, and I got the first job I went for as a filing clerk. I started work straight away and even went out a couple of times with some of the other juniors around my age.

When Trina got her first interview, I took her in and showed her where she needed to go. Neither of us had spent much time in the business part of the city before, so it had taken me a while to figure out my way around the streets.

I showed her the building I worked in too, it was my day off but we went up so I could introduce her to some of the new people I’d met. I wanted to share my world with her.

One of the guys I work with was kind enough to tell Katrina that I’d gotten caught in the filing room with the receptionist, during one of the Friday night drinks. Admittedly, yes that did happen, but it didn’t happen the way everyone thought – I never slept with her.

I still had some work to do and I was in there, finishing up, before heading over to the conference room for drinks. Ella, the receptionist, was a 19 year old girl with a body to die for, she was really nice and I got along with her really well. Obviously though, she took my attentions the wrong way and came to find me.

For a while we were talking and then she started to move closer. I realised what was happening and tried to steer the conversation toward more neutral topics. But, when I bent down to put a file on a low shelf, she took the opportunity to kiss me, which of course is when we got busted.

While I’m sure that the partners and solicitors in the firm were all very professional, the support staff were not. The majority of us were aged between eighteen and twenty-five, and that led to quite a lot of gossip spreading around the office.

It was like being in high school again, but this time I just laughed it off. They could think what they wanted. I told them nothing happened, but they didn’t care. They saw her kissing me, so that was all the confirmation they needed.

Katrina laughed about it and just said it was ‘typical David’. It wasn’t until a couple of weeks later when she’d started work at another law firm that I realised that she actually thought I’d slept with the girl.

I should have corrected her but I didn’t, I was just so happy to be spending time with her. It was the end of her first week of work and she’d agreed to go out clubbing with me to celebrate. Also on the upside I noticed her perving on a guy from her work, so I knew that her interest in men was returning. Things were looking more positive for me.

We went out with a bunch of people from her work to this bar in Darling Harbour called Pontoon. It was there that everything turned to total shit. She started hooking up with this Irish guy on the dance floor, but when he went to kiss her, she took off outside.

I fought through the crowd to get to her and when I finally made it outside she was fucking making out with this huge muscled guy from her work. I was like – fuck my life! – as I stood there, open mouthed watching her practically dry humping him on the wharf.

A few moments later a couple of the others made it out too, and the Irish guy called out to her, shocking her and the guy, Elliot, and causing her to flee.

Elliot started to give chase but I yelled, “No. I’ll go!” and ran after her myself.

When I caught up to her, she was a wreck. I did my best to be a good friend and be understanding of what she was going through, but when Elliot came and spoke to her, I couldn’t stop myself from seething inside.

I waited – I’d waited so long for her and some other guy had her – again.

When I got home that night, I was in a foul mood. My mum had been waiting up and was obviously hoping that things had gone well with Katrina and I. So when I told her about what happened, she was really upset for me.

“Well, maybe it’s just a passing fancy?” she said to me.

“I hope so mum. I fucking hope so.”

Katrina’s work had a no dating policy. So she decided to back off pursuing anything with Elliot after they’d gotten dragged into the manager’s office and questioned about Friday night. It seemed as though someone had dobbed them in – secretly, I was elated.

So, we started going out, and it was just me and her. We would drink and dance and have a great time. But there was still a slight stand offish-ness whenever I got too close to her. I felt that she still wasn’t really ready for a relationship, or at least she wasn’t ready to hear how I felt anyway. Although, perhaps I was just scared myself and stalling.

About a month later, we went out with her friends from work to Pontoon again. I met her at her work and we had a few drinks there to start off with, before walking there together as a group.

I don’t know what the hell it is about that place, but off she went again, dancing with that Irish guy. Only this time, I could tell she was leading him on. I was really pissed off with her, so when she took off outside with him, I started to accept the attentions of another girl she worked with called Beth. We went for a walk and started talking.

Beth had this major crush on Elliot, who was actually her boss. She told me that I should watch out for Katrina around him, he had a thing about bedding all the pretty new girls. She said he’d done it with her too and I grew really concerned.

When we got back, I couldn’t find Trina anywhere. I freaked out thinking she’d gone home with Irish, but when I saw him there alone I immediately questioned him.

“She couldn’t find you mate. We looked everywhere. So I ended up taking her to meet up with someone so she didn’t have to catch the train home alone.” He leaned in close to whisper. “I promised not to say anything to the people she works with, but since you’re her best friend, I think it’s safe to tell you. She went with that guy we caught her with last time you two came out with us,” he said.

“Are you serious?! Why the fuck didn’t she wait?!”

“She tried calling you, but you weren’t answering.”

I pulled my phone out of my pocket and saw that the battery had died. “Fuck!” I yelled, getting the attention of Beth again, she suggested that I went home with her instead.

“I’ve barely had a couple of drinks. Catch the train home with me to keep me safe, and then I’ll drive you to your place.”

I agreed and on the train ride and the drive home, Beth and I kind of came to an understanding. I think the fact that we were both the people on the outside of what was happening with Elliot and Katrina, it caused us to have some sort of bond. Misery loves company, so they say, and nothing fights off misery like sex.

We did it in the back seat of her car in the parking lot of Penrith station, where she’d taken me to pick up my car.

Afterwards I felt like I’d done something horribly wrong. But in the end, it didn’t matter. Katrina had moved on. She’d move on with Elliot.

After that night, I started dating Beth, and started fighting with Trina. I just couldn’t stand to be around another of her relationships again. I was angry that it wasn’t me. I was angry that she didn’t seem to get how much I cared about her – how could she not see that I loved her? How could she not feel the same?

Eventually Elliot came to see me, and told me how upset she was that I wasn’t speaking to her. He assured me that he wasn’t going to be an obstacle in our friendship, and when I reminded him about the way he acted when he first met me, he laughed it off and said that he just wasn’t expecting that I was a guy – it kind of threw him off a bit.

I went to see Trina and tell her that Elliot had come to see me, and that I was willing to try and fix things between us. I tried to tell her then how I felt, but it all came out wrong. I just bumbled my way around the truth and told her that I couldn’t handle seeing her with anyone because of what happened with Christopher – it changed things. But she didn’t get what I was trying to tell her, so I gave up and left again, completely disheartened.

I continued seeing Beth, it was the first time I had actually dated someone and it was alright. I wasn’t as horrible at that boyfriend stuff as I thought I would be. We worked because she was angry at Elliot, and I was angry at Katrina. Together, we found comfort for a few weeks.

When Trina and Elliot broke up, I did my best to stay away. I didn’t want to go running back to her this time. Especially when I was at the point where I felt that there was little hope for us as a couple – I obviously wasn’t her type. I couldn’t compete with those big guys she went for. That just wasn’t me.

Although, my resolve was completely shattered the moment I ran into her when I was meeting Beth for lunch. She had come down in the elevators on her own and was such a huge ball of emotion, that when I tried to see if she was ok, she lashed out at me, insisting that I didn’t care enough about her. It was the opposite though – I cared too much. I cared way more than she knew.

When Beth came down, I told her I couldn’t see her anymore. I knew I wasn’t being fair to her.

“You’re breaking up with me? I thought we understood each other?” she said.

“I’m sorry Beth. You know how I feel about Katrina,” I tried to explain.

“That’s just great. I love how she gets everyone and I end up with nobody.”

“I’m sorry.” What else could I say?

She stomped off out the doors without a backward glance. Besides feeling bad for dumping her, I was glad it was over. Neither of us were really that into each other. It was all about having someone so we weren’t left out for a change. It was ok, but she didn’t fit me like Katrina did.

I decided that night that I was going to go and see Katrina and tell her once and for all how I felt about her, and blow the consequences. If she didn’t feel the same way, then so be it, I wouldn’t be any worse off than I was right then.

When I went to her house, her mother told me that she was out at the local Irish pub, I drove over and found her there talking to Christopher – I couldn’t believe my eyes, she was talking to the scumbag who beat her up! All I could think was What the fuck? as I walked up to her and tried to get her to come with me so we could talk.

Of course, Christopher had to get in my face, and I had no reason to be nice to him anymore, so I called him a few choice names and once again, he punched me. I don’t know why, but for some reason, as his fist kept hitting into me, I started laughing.

I don’t know what happened, but somehow, he was hauled off me and Trina was by my side, looking all concerned and saying sweet things to me.

She was visibly upset about what had happened and while we were sitting in the emergency room waiting to get some scans done, I told her how I felt.

After eleven years of friendship, I told her that I loved her. Miraculously, she loved me too.

Finally, I had my girl, and this time – it was forever.


David: Where did that song come from?

Lilliana: Oh, I added it. I thought it suited you and Katrina. Did you like it?

David: It’s a bit sappy, but yeah, I liked it. I’ll show it to Trina when I get home.

Lilliana: I hope she likes it too! Thanks so much for being on my blog today David, and thank you so much for letting me into your world with Too Close. We knew you in A Beautiful Struggle, but it’s been great to spend time with you.

David: It’s no trouble. Thanks for having me.

Lilliana: Any time David! mwah!

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David: Hang on. What? Where are these photos coming from?

Lilliana: Huh? Didn’t you know I had this one? It’s from when you and Trina had that water fight. Remember?

David: Yeah, but, I don’t remember any photos being taken…

Lilliana: Well! Thanks again for being on the blog David! Maybe you’d like to come back some other time! Bye for now! *pushes him out, closes door and locks it* Hmmm… Just one more I think…

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10 days to go!!!

The final countdown is on! Too Close will be releasing in 10 days!! I’m so excited!

(If there’s a big black rectangle below this post – it’s supposed to be a countdown widget. If it doesn’t work and you want to see the countdown visit this page to see it displayed on your screen http://countingdownto.com/countdown-page/show/Too%20Close%20releases%7C51f67560%7C1)

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Decisions

So, I need a little help deciding here. I wrote a bit of bonus material for A Beautiful Struggle. The whole point of it is to give you David’s side of the story.

In A Beautiful Struggle, Katrina assumes a lot of things about David’s activities away from her, but we don’t get to actually know what it was he was doing – he always kept his private life away from Trina, and as Struggle was in Trina’s voice, it was kept away from us too.

Recently, I said that I would post a blog on Friday that is basically A Beautiful Struggle – David’s side of the story. It’s very short, but it tells you what he was doing and how he felt about things.

My problem is – do I post the short this friday, or do I wait until after Too Close has released? It might be better to read it after you have read both Too Close and A Beautiful Struggle.

I will leave it in your hands – do you want it now? or do you want it after you’ve already spent some time in David’s head and know him better?

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The Beauty in Between – Beautiful Series Novellas

While we’re all awaiting the release of Too Close, the first Beauty in Between novella, I thought I would take some time to talk about exactly, what, the Beauty in Between books are, and what’s in store for them.

When I created A Beautiful Struggle, it was meant to be a stand alone book. It was just a book about a girl and a guy who get seriously sidetracked on their way to finding each other. But, after it had been released for only a couple of weeks, I started getting emails asking me for a continuation of the story.

As a result, I wrote A Beautiful Forever, thinking that that novel, would be the end of the series. I thought they would be A Beautiful Duo, and I’d end it there. But after releasing Forever, I continued to get emails and comments about both books.

Readers wanted to see more of Katrina and David, both before and after A Beautiful Struggle. They also wanted to know more about Paige and her past. On top of that, I was getting emails asking me to continue the series with Naomi as the centre of the next book.

My answers to most of these questions/comments are The Beauty in Between novellas. As the name suggests, they slot in between the Beautiful novels, to show you what happened.

Right now, I have three novellas planned. First, of course, is Too Close (Katrina and David’s friendship before ABS, releasing July 30), second is Phoenix (Paige’s story, releasing September 30), and third is Commitment – I’ll bet you can guess what this one is about, although, I’ll tell you anyway. Commitment will follow on after A Beautiful Forever, it will follow David and Katrina home from the BBQ and explore their relationship leading up to their wedding.

I don’t have a release date for Commitment as yet, because I’m also working on Naomi’s story, which is called A Beautiful Melody and is due to release November 30.

So, get ready to have all your questions answered and more. Looks like the Beautiful world is going to have a fairly long life. I’ll write it, at least, until you’re all sick of it – that’s how much I love you all! MWAH!

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Too Close – Early reader

I posted the following status on my FB author page last night, if you’re interest, then please either comment on this post or on facebook and I’ll include you in my magic hat.

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  • I’ve been totally AWOL all day. What’s my excuse? Well, I’ve been knee deep working on Too Close. I mentioned it’s the prequel to A Beautiful Struggle right? It’s in David’s voice and tells you all about his friendship and feelings for Katrina, right up until Christopher enters the picture. We remember him right? He’s the douchebag from A Beautiful Struggle.

    Anyway, it’s been thoroughly beta tested and every single one of them loved it! Even the toughest of my Beta Reading Beauties, said wonderful things. So I’m super happy and hoping for a great reception when it’s released on July 30.

    So, that being said – WHO wants to review it for me? Raise your hand and I’ll put your name in a hat and pull out five names.

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July 3, 2013 · 3:27 am

Time to clear something up re: Athletes

Ok, so normally I just ignore comments made in reviews, but one keeps popping up about A Beautiful Struggle that I feel the need to comment on myself.

It goes along the lines of ‘I can’t believe that Katrina, being an athlete, would drink, party and have sex like she does’

This is where I say – believe it. Athletes party hard. Especially when they aren’t in competition. How do I know this? Because I used to be an elite athlete. I rowed for Australia for two consecutive years when I was younger – so I know a little about how much athletes drink and do stupid things. I witnessed it first hand and joined in on more than one occasion.

Don’t believe me – here’s proof. That’s me on the left in stroke seat, racing in the World Championships. (it’s a bit grainy coz it’s a photo of a photo)

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What’s the point of this post? Well, other than to prove my point, I wanted to say that I ALWAYS research my books. I try to stay as true to the character and as true to life as I possibly can.  I’m not perfect and I might make mistakes – but in this case I didn’t

That’s all 🙂

 

 

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Special Promotions for Australian and New Zealand Readers.

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If you are a fan of A Beautiful Struggle, then you will want to hear about this one – The Beauty in Between Book One ‘Too Close’ is about to be released. It is the prequel to Struggle, and is told from David’s POV all about his friendship with Katrina.

The iBookstore have been kind enough to set it up for pre-order for all Aussie/NZ residents, so if you’re dying to get your hands on David and Katrina’s story then you can have it delivered to your Apple device the moment it goes live on the 30th July.

https://itunes.apple.com/nz/book/beauty-in-between-too-close/id665369587?mt=11

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Also happening right now, is the iBookstore ‘Home Grown Romanace’ promo, where they have A Beautiful Forever listed for only 99cents. Now, it’s very rare that I get to run a promo on any site other than Amazon, so I’m really excited I can offer this to you all.

https://itunes.apple.com/nz/book/a-beautiful-forever/id617266232?mt=11

This promo runs for two weeks and ends on the 9th July.

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Writing updates – What am I working on?

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I currently have two books that I am working on right now. I’m aiming for both of them to be novella length, but I have a feeling that Too Close might try and sneak its way into novel territory.

Release dates for each book – Confidante: The Escort – June 30

Too Close: The Beauty in Between – July 30

If you aren’t following me on Facebook then OR you’ve never read any of my books before, then you will have no idea over the significance of these two books. Confidante: The Escort is the long awaited second book in the Confidante Trilogy. It follows, Angelein, a retired Sydney sex worker as she rises through the ranks, starting as a prostitute in a brothel, then moving on to being an escort and then finally a madame, before hanging up her sex worker hat for good.

It’s a true story about a woman who didn’t see sex work as the lowest of the low, instead she embraced it and became highly successful due to her effervescent attitude.

‘Too Close’ is the first book in my ‘The Beauty in Between’ series. Now, this series was created to answer all of the questions that readers of A Beautiful Struggle and A Beautiful Forever had about the character’s pasts. Too Close is a look into David and Katrina’s friendship, told from David’s point of view, it starts with him taking her to the hospital after her altercation with Christopher. While he waits to find out if she’s ok, he thinks back on their life together.

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Don’t get upset over bad reviews.

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I have been on a few different forums lately, talking to other authors about whether or not we read our reviews and then how we react to the bad ones.

Some are fine either way, while other others can’t stand to look at all and a handful only look at the early reviews and then move on.

Me, I read them and while the first poor review I got was disappointing, it was soon squashed down by a whole host of glowing reviews that made me realise that perhaps, as I writer – I didn’t totally suck.

Bad reviews seem to travel in groups. I don’t know what it is, but I notice that whenever I get one poor review on a title, a whole bunch of them come on in to join it. But, for me, as long as overall I have more good than bad, it’s not a big deal.

Let’s have a look at my latest bad review on Amazon for A Beautiful Struggle, it’s actually what prompted me to create this post because it is the complete opposite to what a lot of my other reviews have to say –

1.0 out of 5 stars Corny
Not a big fan of this one. It was very long drawn out and corny. Very predictable ending I am afraid.
Now why shouldn’t I be upset by this? Let me show you why.
5.0 out of 5 stars A Beautiful Struggle
This was a really great book I highly recommend it to be read. A good love story with twists that you do not see coming. Would love to read the back story.
I suppose I could have found one of those 5 star reviews to show you that rave on about how awesome I am, but I chose this one, because it was short, sweet and to the point. The 1 star thought I was predictable, but the 5 star didn’t see the twists at all – it’s all about perspective really isn’t it?
What is it about the 1star review that makes it more valid than the 5star review? Does the fact that that person could break down my plot and not be surprised at all make her a better judge of my work than the reviewer who fell in love with my characters and was shocked by the turn the plot took?
The answer is each review is valid in it’s own right – it’s simply someone else’s opinion. One reader loved it, the other reader hated it. But you  know what? I didn’t like Pride and Prejudice. I know, I know, I should be drawn and quartered for that, and I’m so so sorry, but I just didn’t enjoy it. I love the premise behind it, but as a page turner – it just didn’t work for me. But me thinking that, doesn’t make it any less of a masterpiece right?
You see what I’m getting at? A bad review (or even 20) doesn’t make your own ‘masterpiece’ any less of one in someone else’s eyes.
Overall, A Beautiful Struggle has a rating of 3.8 out of 5. It was my very first work of fiction and I’m damn proud of it. Someone telling me they thought it was boring or predictable, isn’t going to change my opinion of it. Just like someone telling me it’s fantastic isn’t going to make me think I deserve a Nobel prize. I love my characters and I love the story. More people like it than they do hate it, so that’s a pretty fantastic thing in my mind, and I see very few books out there with a one star rating, so there are readers out there for all of us, who hear our voice and see our vision exactly how it was meant to be – but that 1 or 2 star reviewer, just wasn’t one of them.
So what if someone hates it? I hate grapefruit, but that doesn’t stop the shops from selling it.
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